Erishkigal's Daughter

by Beth - Scorpio

I superimposed your image 
upon mine in a cloud of silver nitrate
our faces and forms mingling, distorting;
a reflection of something beautiful turned heinous.
I pulled the skin from my flesh to show you
the bounty contained within, but I
never anticipated you turning away with outright disgust.
And now I sit here alone
and exposed
waiting for the rot, waiting for salvation, waiting for
Death.

I never meant to fall
from your graces
but I never could conceal the blackness within my being.
My thoughts are polluted, corrupted.
I dream the dreams of the sinned and foul and I
am darker than Erishkigal herself. 
I wonder at this purity you have claimed for your own;
from whence it came, for you
where once as guilty and dirty faced as I.

How is it that you were exalted
while I was left to flounder here 
in the bowels of this make-shift Hell?
How is it that you push me from this precipice
and walk calmly through the Gates of Heaven,
hands clean and golden faced like a Saint?

I seem to have lost my page 
for the you I once knew was never so pious and righteous,
Yet there you stand before me judging
And deem me unworthy, un holy, unclean.
Birth sign: Scorpio
Date created: 2005-03-25 06:23:59
Last updated: 2021-03-03 14:46:49
Poem ID: 70709

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