Not Crying

by Twan - Aries

I moved away from my old life
paused on the way
I can still remember the night
and remember the day
I refuse to let the tears multiply
One gets free
But I won't cry 
Not at all, not me
The boy played games with me
And left me panting for more
But I'm not exactly the kind of guy
who attracts whores
you're falling back to me, but I don't have to see
everything you mean, leaving me out at sea

You might have hurt me
left wounds and welts
but you'll never beat me down
use my skin as a pelt
defying the rules, I always try
but you'll never have my skull,and I'll never cry
I'll listen to my Our Lady Peace song
And I'll hold my head high
But another mistake, I might crumble
But I will not cry

I'll soothe my wounds with salt
I'll put everything behind
but soon, it'll all burst out
in the middle of the grind
It'll spill out like water
and pool around like blood
And I'll hurt other people 
and feel like crud
But what can I do
without the aim I had before
What can I do
when I'm innudated with bores?
I'll fight them all the way down
I'll let it be in anger and plea
but they slowly begin to leak out
one, two, three
I bellow in rage and blanch in fear
that everything I've ever known, all the reasons that I'm shy
Is all because of this
the willingness not to cry. 

Things fall apart, the center cannot hold
And I walk away from everything that's dying
But finally, it's happened
I started crying.
Birth sign: Aries
Date created: 2005-05-21 22:40:27
Last updated: 2021-03-03 14:46:50
Poem ID: 70763

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