i refuse to let this get me.. and yet it always does... i fall into it every fucking time... i need some fucking gloves.. to dig through all this shit.. bad memories..the lost feeling you get after you get dissed by the one you "love".... the one you would shove... towards the right decision.... at least i thought it was.. maybe i was blind.. invisible amongst love.... i dont know where to go.. form here or where ive been.. im not even sure who i am... i dont know where this ends... probaly when my lifes light is turned out... maybe ill understand when im older... can you make this better.... no matter the weather.... its better...when yer around... this doesnt even make sense... so dense..too many emotions for me to control... too bad now i cant be old.. already been through all this shit.. learn from every mistake... why does this take.. every single emotion im capable of.. these tears streaming down my face.. seem so validated...like they were dated when i was younger.. im confused... nothing makes sense.. not even me.....for the first time but prolly not the last.. can i forget my past.. let it go..move on..be strong.. i find myself rambling... on things i dont understand... ive said it time and time before.. again here i stand.... on the threshold of something great.. or at least ill tell myself that.... maybe fool myself again... and hopefully bring this back.... to the point of undercontrol.... or somewhere in the region... why do i feel this terrible... is there any good reason...
Reason for writing:
im so confused and fucked up right now..on the verge of making a huge decision that im not sure is the best for my situation...dont know what to do....i need some good advice but theres none to be found amongst my freinds...can anybody help me?! cipher
Birth sign: Aries
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