so i met this girl.. hoping she might be the one... but the more i thought.... the more i get caught.... in these feelings still undone... jaded recollections.... of so much hurt in my past... you see...every time i thought it was real... thatd be the time it wouldnt last.... where do i go from here... should i just wear my heart on this sleave... let her know....and try to show... and just hope that she believes.... that what im saying is real.... and not what i think she wants to hear.... could i ever be loved again... it keeps me standing near.... the edge of giving in to myself... and saying what i truly feel.... ive seen it go bad so many times.... maybe this times its real... yeah....i met this girl... afraid she might float away.... afraid of saying the wrong things... simply confused on what to say.... what if open myself up again... just to be mislead.... they say the journey is greater than the destination... i just cant this out of my head... maybe im being neurotic... jaded to say the least... but broken hearts never mend quickly.... too many times ive met that beast... ive felt ill never love again... if only to protect myself.... but then again...why the fuck am i here.... its as if im stuck on a shelf.... just watching and waiting.... afraid to be hurt again..... thinking and thinking.....for always... that i want her for more than a freind.... what if she says no.... and just cant feel the same.... could i turn and walk away again.... with another hole in my heart to mend.. i met this girl.... she consumes my mind and my thoughts... i dont think she knows it quite yet.... i want to...but i just cant stop... hoping alone by myself.... thinking someday she might be mine.... hoping to give her all that i can.... my heart my soul my mind..... and if she rejects me.... or just cant feel the same... then what do i do....i can only deal with a few... more days of wasted time.... i wonder if she could understand.... how scared i am and why.... i promise myself over and over.... for no girl...will i again ever cry.... so yeah.... i met this girl... should i tell her just how i feel... or should i wait.....and be fooled by "fate"... i wish i was made out of steel.... cold and hard..too the touch... but inside i just melt away... i suppose ill just say it... and maybe itll be okay.... so when you read this.... this girl that ive met... please....trust every word.... just know that im yours...whenever your ready... and i mean everything youve heard... i hope its not to much for you... me feeling this way.... i know it might be overwhelming.... but everything ive said....i just had to say... so there it is...vulnerable me.... hoping not to be crushed again... i guess at the very least... i can love you as my freind....
Reason for writing:
this is for someone i am sooo intrigued by...im just scared of saying things that could get me caught up in feeling something for someone that might not feel the same for me.....like im scared of rejection so badly...terrified in fact..but i keep thinking if i never say this then i might be losing someone amazing...you know who you are and i hope you can give me the chance to prove myself to you....ugghhh...what do you do? cipher
Birth sign: Aries
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