Where the hell is Chanel?

by tattooedbeatmessiah - Libra

i have just got done
reading through the archives
of all the old poems that i
and some others posted here
so many years ago
and
i found that i remember so much
of those old ones i wrote
and as i was reading,
i could feel the loneliness dripping
like rainwater from the pages.
every so often,
i miss those times,
being alone with my destruction
in my hands,
a bottle in front of me,
drinking jack and cokes while
chain smoking and filling an 
already overflowing ashtray as
i typed two fingered by
moonlite 
all those painful words
for you to feel...
back then,
some of you understood,
some were amused
others wrote me off,
i miss drinking the words
as much as i sometimes miss
the jack and cokes
but most of all,
i miss the others who
shared my misery,
the writers of the nite
who opened their lifes
like pages from a book 
all across these poems,
i see there are a few who,
like me,
came back here and post
not as often as they did,
but where are the others?

Chanel used to make me smile
with her schoolgirl crushes
and positive views even in
my darkest moments,
Jared and Antwan,
though i rarely commented on 
their works,
always had me coming back for more,
then there was Beth and Nicole,
the plathe and browning of the pages
with their
unrivalled form and substance,
and eveningstar princess, without
her faith i don't think i could
have made it this far,
last but not least,
there was moonshine, 
who seems to have shed her stage name
and now pens under elisa,
i always felt i had met her
somewhere, sometime,
in a smoky bar,
two ships sailing different seas
but
weathering the same storm,
her thoughts comforted me as 
i swallowed her words....

to those who made it back,
good to see you and
to those who aren't back....
i miss you....

Reason for writing:

    feeling old and nostalgic    

Birth sign: Libra
Date created: 2005-11-10 11:14:56
Last updated: 2021-03-03 14:46:55
Poem ID: 71032

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