The man I once knew

by Twan - Aries

I knew you years and years ago. 
I knew you when you bled and cried, when your mom ran the afro pick through your hair and you cried, when you got beaten up and you cried, and you got hurt inside and you cried. 

Whatever happened to you?
You fought for years for respect
You got it and it got you
Whatever happened to that little boy who made people think he was so smart?
He became what he wasn't to be 

He shook his fist at the storm cloud and kept going 
"goodbye my friend, you shall be knowing"
He looked into the future and saw more of the past
but hell wasn't for you, it didn't last
You loved fiercely with no restraint
You glossed over that which was bad and overwrote your insecurities with paint
But your smile hid a questioning, gathering ball of fear
You knew the end wasn't far away, it was too near
You fear death but not being dead, it's the way you get there you don't want ever to know about
That you'll be replaced by someone who doesn't know what you do?
He sat on the bench with his pain sitting close
He hid his insecurites, but without a single boast
He faked interest then, he won't now
He cried out in his sleep "Why? How?"
You don't know me well, you never could, I didn't want you
You weren't always trying to be different, you didn't want to
you wanted to be straight, and you wanted to be dumb
Thank God you found differently, or you would have been a bum. 
Hay in the middle of the barn, hey, look at me with a ball of yarn!
He became, today, what a man could not be
He never appeared in prison, he never concealed his glee
his arrogance was a turn-off, so he overcame his stupidity
That man, I knew so well? That man is me.

Reason for writing:

    Well, I think most of you knew from line 2 that person is me, but I took some liberties and pretended it wasn't till the last line :)    

Birth sign: Aries
Date created: 2005-11-15 04:10:03
Last updated: 2021-03-03 14:46:55
Poem ID: 71046

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