smile

by Tiana - Aries

I'm independent
always have been
i can stand my own
when i have to
i'm always the first one to fight
for a friend
some girls look at me
with fear in their eyes
they think I'm a bad bitch
they are afraid to say hi
they think I'm scary
they know I'm tough
but all I really want is someone to love
old people shake their heads at me
such a pretty face they say
but that bad attitude needs to change
I worked a few fast food places
when I was younger
I never smiled
the customers always complained
said I was rude
I didn't care i was just passing time
besides I never really had anything to smile about
I spent my life blaming my mother
for everything bad in my life
but it wasn't her fault
she couldn't even take care of herself
just ask my father
she was a lousy fucking wife
she like to drink vodka
straight from the bottle
and i became the little whore
who ruined her body
my father was a mafia memeber
the mexican mafia
as far back as i could remember
we always had people over
big bald mexicans with tattoos
big bald mexicans that grew
to lust after me
as i got older
sometimes they would try to make a move
but i just tell my daddy
and they were never seen again
i was his little mafia princess
he had big dreams
for me
but i just wanted to be me
i never went to church
never had a family outing
we were always moving
my dad was alway shouting
and shooting
he wasn't afraid
he was tough
maybe that's why my momma like to drink
cause he never knew how to love
he was a bad boy
i guess that's why i like
men with from the rougher side
daddy is doing five to ten 
for a little traffickin
that's what the paper said
momma's at home with a new boyfriend
she sleeps all day and drinks all night
so when people ask
why i never smile
with my life
you have to ask
Birth sign: Aries
Date created: 2005-11-22 14:35:15
Last updated: 2021-03-03 14:46:55
Poem ID: 71065

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