I'd rather die than to be here, you just don't understand. I've ruined so many lives coming in the place of a dead man. Upsetting the balance of life is something I didn't wish to do. I can't changed what happened and I may have affected you. I've destroyed the lines of fate connected to those in which I care. So, now their destiny floats along within the air. If I just let him die instead of mistaking wrong for right. Maybe the children I've ruined would have lived a normal life. DJ would be in Camarillo and Christopher would still be here. Now I live with the pain and guilt for the rest of my years. To the mother and sister of this man I wouldn't have to lie. To this woman who wants forever, I wouldn't make her cry. Death was foreseen and a bad choice have I made. Living a life that wasn't mine, too high of a price they've paid. All because the life that was lost was so close to me. He shouldn't have died, I was his guardian, now can you see? I failed him that night or else he would be here. I felt obligated to finish this to prevent the shedding of tears. It was spur the moment and I never assessed the risk. But in my heart, now thinking about it, I still would've done this.
Reason for writing:
Reflecting on all of the lives I have affected making a choice that wasn't mine to make.
Birth sign: Scorpio
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