i feel like the world is twirling at my feet that I just am beat its lingers inside me but I just want to be free and it it is killing me slowly eats me alive it seems that I must die mom holds on not wanting to let go but NO No I say I cant take this any more. All I think about is that demon The demon that wont let me be That it just wont let me be free. Its difficult day by day All I can do is fall to my knees and pray But I cant I just cant Confronting the one I hold dear And tell him what I fear. Its just to hard to feel this pain Why give it to him to gain Its my fault I feel this way So now I just must pay For all the hurt and all the misery That I had caused to all those I hold dear “PLEASE, please don’t leave be near” I scream as they walk right past This all happened way to fast But they don’t know im in pain I wipe my tears and smile Cant you tell something’s wrong don’t you see my empty face But I am such a disgrace It can not linger any more in my life I have to hold on and move on For better day are sure to come But that’s just mere dream As I look down at this stream, The stream of guilt and shame But I am the only one to blame. I will lay this down its time for me to go I will try to hold on But for the world to know Stay away from this demon don’t let it get to you, don’t let it get you down For its to late I cant be saved from this grave
Reason for writing:
i am an addict i have been addicted to oxycontin for two long and i am trying to over come this addiction. i know that i will always be an addict but i am an addict in recovery. i wrote this poem after i was clean for a month and relapsed i was in one of my darkest moments when i wrote this.
Birth sign: Sagittarius
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