My Rationales

by A.N.M. - Pisces

I've caught myself time after time and again
Some "quirkiness" held onto for some kind of gain
A logic that ultimately makes no true sense
But "seems" to have reason, some recompense
I rationalize my way out of everything...
Why do this or do that, what worth will it bring?
To wake up, to get up, showered and clean
Drink coffee, scan news, feed the cat, what's it mean?
Each day just another new struggle to find
What makes sense of my life, what value my mind?
Not curing cancer, not making a dent
Growing tired of day-to-day life I have spent
And for what?  So that I may say, "I'm still here?"
What purpose, my living, when it's all too clear
That I'm just surviving for reasons unknown
Yet to be seen, is my place on some throne
So I live just to live because deaths not prestigious
Don't get me wrong...I'm still somewhat religious
Life is so precious, life has such meaning
So why am I often so purposeless leaning?
I know I have value, I know I have worth
But still I can't find my true place on this earth
And when I'm in pain it just makes it much worse
So I rationalize everything...just call it some curse
And decide to do NOTHING with all that I'm given
And God knows I know that is no way of living!
Birth sign: Pisces
Date created: 2005-12-05 22:54:56
Last updated: 2021-03-03 14:46:56
Poem ID: 71109

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