Britney

by Tiana - Aries

I have fought so hard to survive
tried for years just to keep my life
from disappearing
into the ground
at Grovers Cementary number nine
I have stumbled, I tripped
but I got right back up
and started all over again
I've beat all the odds
ran from the law
fought with my mother
when she was right
even though I was convinced she was wrong
 I hid in alleys
from the cops
when I didn't do right
kept my mouth shut
when my boys where out at night
doing bad things
I had their backs no matter what 
I have been in so many fights
with bitches at school
sometimes they didn't deserve
the shit I would do
some of them I felt sorry for
they'd beg me to stop
but I kept pounding
until my pain didn't hurt
until the anger was gone
I fought this one girl
her name was Britney
she was pretty
well she was pretty
my man liked her
he liked her body
and sometimes he'd talk about her
in front of me
it made me angry
i hated her
even though
i knew i was prettier than her
it didnt matter
i couldnt stand the fact
that my man wanted her
so I fought my conscience
and messed up her face
she had to have stitches
and the charges were placed
assult and battery
against a rich bitch
is never good
when you are the one being charged
my man didn't want her after that
fuck he didnt even want me
i felt bad
but that's the way life had to be
I'm not proud of who I am
or what I have done
You probably think
I'm a poor excuse for a person
maybe you are right
but I don't care what you think
this is my life
maybe I am afraid
afraid of being weak
afraid of letting myself
lose all my strength
my girls would have never let me forget it
if I wouldn't have kicked her ass
I'd be the joke of the party
sometimes I wish I could take it all back
make things right
and forget about him
it's not like  she would have given him a chance
he was a thug
a gangster
to her he was mexican trash
but I had to defend
what i thought was mine
so I made her cry
made her feel pain
over and over again
but that's the way things have to be
when you are living your life as me


Reason for writing:

    i'm not proud of what i did but when you have a reputation you have to remain true and when another bitch is after your man you have to stand up and let her know    

Birth sign: Aries
Date created: 2005-12-10 16:10:16
Last updated: 2021-04-14 17:18:17
Poem ID: 71115

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