jaime was here 6/3/06

by e. h. - Libra

his place
my refuge 
          
            no words 
              nor
           explanation
                          
                        necessary

just a knock 
on the door
at any hour

               and i was in

  my bloodstained shirts
  handwashed and dried
  before my waking

                   rolling over in flannel
                   to the smells of a good
                   ol' southern boy breakfast

    eggs
    and 
    bacon
    and
    sausage
    and
    biscuits
    and 
    gravy

                 he'd fix all this
                 and wait for me
                 to come stumblin'
                 out of the bedroom

   hand me some coffee
      and a plate
    
                          and let me decide
                          the course of the
                                day

     he was always 
     up for anything
     from dirtbikes
     to museums
     to skinnydipping
     in the neighbor's 
     pond

                      nothing i ever asked
                      was something that
                      couldn't be done

   and it would go on like this

           for as long as it took
           for me to get over 
           what had brought me
           there in the first place

 sometimes 1 day
 most the time 2 or 3
 and once i stayed there
 three weeks

               him gently bringing
               me back to normal
               asking for little 
               in return but that
               i spare him the 
               details that would
               surely destroy the
               image of me in his
               mind, distorted as
               it might have been

it is this 
refuge 
there on 
the hill 
at the end
of a little
dirt road
still standing
all four bedrooms
and wrap around 
porch
christmas lights
twinkling
despite it
being early
june
    
                  i am certain of that
                  writing this through
                  blurry hazed eyes
                  so i do not forget
                  come morning

    it is definite
    it is there
    it is just that

 strangers opened the door
 when i knocked
 seemingly disturbed by
 my knocking at this hour
 not knowing his name
 when i asked for him

                          unknowingly
                         stripping away
                         the only peace
                         i've ever known
Birth sign: Libra
Date created: 2006-06-04 11:57:28
Last updated: 2021-04-14 17:18:17
Poem ID: 71359

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