In the window

by Twan - Aries

High above the street, when the fog began to clear
I floated, the timidity of a gaggle of mice. 
Standing near the bar with a drink in my hand
I painted over generic techno with "Another Day In Paradise."

Above me the light shines in the window
I see nothing, I'm focused on the street
I feel I've failed it again 
And my confidence depletes
 
Let me let your light shine down? I don't really think so
And I'm back among my people but feeling out of place
Someone strikes up a conversation and I reply,
but they leave as I'm staring into space. 

I'm a million miles away, or 457 to be sure.
I wonder if things are the same where I've seen
I remember a rock-hard erection that I covered in shame
Things were so different in times that were lean. 

The light-a man's upper torso-shines to the street
Seen from the back as I do it's a symbol
as I walk back toward the lake I reflect that my ego
and hubris could fit in a thimble

Waking to a thought that I'm back where I belong 
Doesn't quite compute when I look around my room
I don't understand why I want to return
to a place where I could have met my doom

I did, say I, enjoy who I loved
But I made one mistake
I put on a brave face for the move
but it was really quite fake

Sitting in my room, quietly loving myself
But thinking back on wonderous nights
Standing on R and H to see
The beautiful city lights

It's not mine anymore, I remind myself
It belongs to the worms
But when I leave Chicago, this time
It'll be on my terms. 

Come the dawn that spreads along the street 
We scatter from this trough
And the light that shines above us, guiding us toward destiny. 
Finally turns off.

Reason for writing:

    A visit to Chicago that comes up this Thursday.    

Birth sign: Aries
Date created: 2006-07-28 04:04:45
Last updated: 2021-03-03 14:47:02
Poem ID: 71439

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