In my teen years i've reached a turning point A minster tried to give me religon but i found confidence Looking at a beautiful Christian girl one year older then me I got her but it was short lived It left me thinking of her and kept me dreaming I kept on bleeding everytime i would think of her I thought my heart broke everytime I wished it would stop i wish i didin't miss her anymore I couldn't handle the silence walking around in my cellblock season after season One day during lock down I said "I don't deserve you" sitting in the a cellblock my tears just came out like crazy It was the hardest thing to say it made my soul feel empty and cold My life was so fucked up so i prayed a litte prayer "I hope you marry someone special and find love with that special someone" It felt like I gave her away or that i gave up I submitted to my cell block And went back to living the rest of my youth in prison
Reason for writing:
She did marry someone. she told me she married a guy from her hometown, an ex before me. I wish things were diffrent like i didint' go to jail....
Birth sign: Aries
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