FORGIVING YOURSELF

by Lexi Hilife - Leo

I GOT BENEATH MYSELF  I DIDN'T TAKE A BIG BREATH  I JUST HELD MY HEAD UNDERNEATH THE WATER OF MY SHAME  THE DEEP SALTY LIQUID OF MY TEARS  DROWNING IN MY SUFFOCATING SORROW  I HAD PLENTY OF TROUBLES  NO NEED TO BORROW  NO EXCESS OF EMOTIONAL DOLLARS  BANKRUPT IN MY SELF LOVE ACCOUNT  I FELT NO LOVE  I GAVE MYSELF NONE  YOU CANNOT GIVE THAT WHICH YOU DO NOT HAVE  CRACKED BLEEDING WEEPING HEART  IS THERE NO SOOTHING SALVE TO HEAL THE WOUNDS THAT FESTER THIS SOUL  CLAWING AT THE SKY  BREAKING LIGHT AT THE SURFACE  ILLUMINATING THAT WHICH THREATENS TO SWALLOW ME WHOLE  WHAT MIGHT I GRASP THAT COULD HOLD ME AS I LONG TO BE HELD  STRENGTH  THE STRENGTH I YEARN FOR  THAT I COULD DO BATTLE  TRANSGRESSIONS I HAVE COMMITTED  DISPELLED      LEXI HILIFE  OCTOBER 2005

Reason for writing:

    FOREVER SEARCHING FOR WAYS TO UNDERSTAND MYSELF    

Birth sign: Leo
Date created: 2006-09-17 13:02:23
Last updated: 2021-03-03 14:47:03
Poem ID: 71473

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