Shakespeare Avenue

by Twan - Aries

"This Space For Rent" reads a sign in the courtway building. 
I turn away feeling sad
For reading that it's available on the net brings thoughts.
None of them bad.
I whistle as I work at home
459 miles away.
And I think of Nick and smile at our one fine day.

We made love in a glow that never once dimmed
No window within a long sight
For once it didn't feel like a one-night stand
It felt like it was right.

There were many before and many later, but that was a time
I doubted I would ever be
Accept who I was I could never do
Until just before I left for St.P

Gay Pride? I don't contribute to the funds
And I don't because I don't shop at Lunds'
Shakespeare Avenue I played as a child
Passed by on the bus but haven't in a little while.
Where was I when I dreamed of having to choose?
I stole no coat and I didn't lose.

Shakespeare Avenue? In Chicago? You Know?
One year completely buried by snow.
I thought about it, considered calling out of the blue.
"How much is this space for rent? The one on Shakespeare Avenue?"

But it hit me: This can't happen, this won't do
Because the world has changed for all who care
I'll take a knife to my memories
And slowly, slowly pare.
If I close my eyes I can see.
The warm summer night I saw 
I really was falling again and was, for a moment, raw.
but it happened the way it always does
With something I wasn't in
And I was laid bare
revealing nothing within.

Reason for writing:

    Explaination: During the summer I departed for Chicago, I met a guy named Nick who stayed on Shakespeare Avenue near Kimball, an area I actually played on when I was a child and passed by when my grandmother lived on St.Louis and Wilson. We had sex and I thought we were going somewhere because we were kissing before and after the act, and went to the store together. A week later after not hearing from him, I went to Charlie's and was accused of stealing a jacket from his friend's car, which was bull, because I don't steal. There's the excuse for getting rid of me. But I always loved that area of Shakespeare Avenue, and, for nostalgia purposes was looking at a rental site in Chicago when I came across a building on Shakespeare very close to where I played and not far from the deal with Nick.    

Birth sign: Aries
Date created: 2007-02-06 09:22:14
Last updated: 2021-03-03 14:47:06
Poem ID: 71613

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