Easy if you try to imagine many things Easy if you know what the summit shall bring Easy if you marry the one you adore Easy if you attend Maryland-E.Shore Easy to believe in the fairness of man Easy if devastasation of my world was planned Easy to imagine the love you had for me dying in a hail of flame and sliding beneath the sea. Tell me who I'd like to have? Tell me if I can grind Tell me what the hell I have and how can I find? A buddhist outlook on this vale I possess I started with lofty goals. So far I have so much less I could give away all possessions, shave my head And I could suppress all memory, fear, even dread But I'd feel nothing, I'd feel all shame A voice speaks close to my ear: "Choose your game" This is what God wants, said this man on my screen And I roll my eyes because you make me feel so unclean I can't hide it anymore, the way I feel And no matter what I do, well, I'll feel like a heel. Coming out without saying it, my birthday was fun And I confessed to more family, moments in the sun I don't care what you do as long as you're safe, and don't walk the ledge Said my favorite aunt to me, as she gave me the pledge. I always knew my cousin was gay, but I never said a word And what I did have to say turned into milky curd When I ran into him at Horizons, and Halsted Street I knew As I stared in his eyes the realization grew So I put my arm around him, and drew him to the side And one of his friends tried to pull him away, and almost died. I glared into his face and spoke really slow: "This is my cousin, you arrogant little mo" He unconvincingly said "I'm not gay" and these are just friends. Right, sure, okay, that's why I feel like I have the bends. Like I was punched in the stomach, and kicked low down And for a hot second I felt any second, here comes the ground. But it came to me, I can't protect him, I didn't really before And even if he came out here I would a lot more. I wanted to say anything, wish he wasn't here to fly but if I did I'd be a hypocrite, and then I'd want to die. So I said "Kid, does anyone know exactly where you are?" And I don't know how you got here, but I know you went too far. Well, maybe I didn't say this, because I was still in shock He wasn't just in b'town, he was ON MY BLOCK Finally, I said "be careful, and don't stay out too late" And with a sigh and a wave I left him to his fate. For all my surroundings, I might as well have been in Rome. And immediately afterward, I just went home.
Reason for writing:
A cousin of mine is officially living the gay lifestyle. And I basically found this out the hard way almost three years ago, when I first ran into him on Halsted Street I was at the 7-11 on Halsted and Roscoe. And so were his buddies. He wasn't out then. And, on my birthday, I found he was going through hell because of it.
Birth sign: Aries
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