That Pounding Thing

by Lexi Hilife - Leo

You're my heart, You're my heart!
Don't you know what I mean?
Such a mess I have made  
That precious thing
Every tear I have ever shed will make little difference
Only God's hand and a retrieval of my lost and forgotten will 
Can clean the stain of the awful thing
No task have I set before myself has ever been so large
As the one I have now to prove to you 
That all I say is what I mean and is true
Of course my failures and downfalls lack originality
I won't be the first nor the last to come crawling back
Detatched from their dignity; but my flaws I'll own them
Reaching deep within myself do my best to atone for them For your love, trust, and pride there could be no better reason for a heart as ardent and pure as yours
That I should decide; all the things in our love I have broken inside. Now show me how much I need to earn you and abide
Comes a time to fix what I can or graciously move aside For someone who would deserves you more than I.
Please though I have no right to ask; Won't you wait until I have truly, truly honestly applied myself and tried? 
For I love you I do, and pray you can still love me too?
I've been a fool, but I know there'll never be another you.
You're my heart, You're my heart.God your turn help me out here? Break the chains that would partition my whole life from the love I need,don't leave me weak and bound by their greed, I'm still in here somewhere and you know the wounds from which I bleed,HELP ME TAKE MY LIFE BACK,GOD CAN"T YOU HEAR ME PLEASE?    Lexi Hilfe 

Reason for writing:

    Because I risk losing the most loving person my life has ever known, and myself. THE TRUTH!!!!!!!!!    

Birth sign: Leo
Date created: 2007-04-19 01:37:24
Last updated: 2021-03-03 14:47:06
Poem ID: 71657

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