on not letting go

by Beth - Scorpio

like a thread pulled through a needle
I followed you down that old lane
the whole while my stomach doing flip flops
a thousand butterflies in my chest
heart in my mouth
words pressed against my teeth.

You are scattered and lost
your world is on fire and as it burns
you want to run to a place you cannot go
you don't have the strength to fight anymore

when you whispered those words
(the very same ones that press against my teeth, still)
I know you mean them and I shouldn't want you to , 
but I do. 
You're not really whispering them to me
but to the girl I used to be
that wild thing in your memory that no longer exists.

You forget the mess I left behind me
the one you raged through
hurt broken shattered
I can't do this again
I can't be what you want me to be

because what you want me to be
is the last thing you (or I) really need.
Birth sign: Scorpio
Date created: 2008-07-06 02:27:48
Last updated: 2021-03-03 14:47:10
Poem ID: 71850

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