Ups and Downs

by Jaired - Aries

I have ups and ups on the daily, life is that great in my eyes
Regardless of all the downs in my life, I try keep my image like everything is going good.

I wont tell anyone i'm down. I don't want to be close to anyone, i'm not scarred of dying and i'm not scarred of misery, its already below surface.

I have no translations for my feelings, i have no words to express. Sometimes I try to tell someone when i'm down, but i just look at them and know for some reason theres no need for anyone to know whats going on inside me.

I use to get these cold shivers down my spine like I'm dying to live, or even get aches in my chest because i'm doing all I can to choke back tears. Now I just look at the world around me, knowing I'm coming first so I dont waste time on anyone else.

The only balance I find in trying to be that man that shows no weakness
   and to be honestly weak about what goes on here and there is the Drugs, Sex, and Money 

these 3 things in my life, I can just let my image just go straight to my head. Deceiving is fun, So is being handsome.

Having lots of sex, doing drugs, and being among the drama I do not care about the "What ifs". We live once is what I know, I've tried to be perfect, but i won't deny it, I have the downs in life to make me stronger.

Reason for writing:

    i made this 3 weeks ago after snorting 400$ of yayo and almost overdosing the day before that on 6 tabs of E... I don't know why i was messing myself up so bad    

Birth sign: Aries
Date created: 2008-08-13 06:12:37
Last updated: 2021-03-03 14:47:10
Poem ID: 71876

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