I have ups and ups on the daily, life is that great in my eyes Regardless of all the downs in my life, I try keep my image like everything is going good. I wont tell anyone i'm down. I don't want to be close to anyone, i'm not scarred of dying and i'm not scarred of misery, its already below surface. I have no translations for my feelings, i have no words to express. Sometimes I try to tell someone when i'm down, but i just look at them and know for some reason theres no need for anyone to know whats going on inside me. I use to get these cold shivers down my spine like I'm dying to live, or even get aches in my chest because i'm doing all I can to choke back tears. Now I just look at the world around me, knowing I'm coming first so I dont waste time on anyone else. The only balance I find in trying to be that man that shows no weakness and to be honestly weak about what goes on here and there is the Drugs, Sex, and Money these 3 things in my life, I can just let my image just go straight to my head. Deceiving is fun, So is being handsome. Having lots of sex, doing drugs, and being among the drama I do not care about the "What ifs". We live once is what I know, I've tried to be perfect, but i won't deny it, I have the downs in life to make me stronger.
Reason for writing:
i made this 3 weeks ago after snorting 400$ of yayo and almost overdosing the day before that on 6 tabs of E... I don't know why i was messing myself up so bad
Birth sign: Aries
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