scared, lost or found

by Johnny - Capricorn

i don't know if i'm either lost or found
i feel that i am caught suspended within the sounds
of your voice echoing in my head

i did something i fought strongly against
but why?..i do not know
i don't feel hollow anymore
yet i am not whole,..
incomplete more like it
but i accept and carry on

a hope lingers in my mind
like a man on his final breath
a darkened tunnel with a trace of light
a parched dessert needing earths' moist delight

my heart clings to a hope,...fragile
as a mother to a child
gentle flowers under the sun
sharpened edges, inflicting as much
as a papercut

i feel neither lost or found
but warm knowing you are still around
i am conflicted
sometimes cold to the spine
but always seem to better in a hurry
when your presence can be found

i am scared
of your power that has engulfed me
full surrender, full loyalty
i am scared not knowing
wholly...truly...
scared to continue on going,..wanting,..
left in the end yearning,...
for you

9/2/08 [h.s.f] & [a.i.d]

Reason for writing:

    *[a.i.d - poems also fall under the "Alone In the Dark" series.]    

Birth sign: Capricorn
Date created: 2008-09-09 10:47:29
Last updated: 2021-03-03 14:47:10
Poem ID: 71883

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