i'm soo tired, and done / no one expected for this to be fun / but surely you and i both know / that there is no real good / waiting for us around the corner yes, i made my choice / i made my bed / a mess it is / and yes i admit / i sleep on it / i stand everyday with the reality of the choices before me / i sleep every night / echoes, of the choices i made in my dreams / i know not where i am / or know exactly who i am supposed to be / at a stand still, limbo, unwavered / feeling suspended and inbetween / "somewhere and nowhere" / yes, that's what i mean / but what is that? / "i don't fucken know!!!" / yes, that's another common theme listen, just listen to ME please / all the things i've said i mean / and the silences inbetween / they have a mean(ing) / but i just don't quite know how to word them / or express them as i'd please / even with me here writing this for you to read / (yes you, you know who) / things that once i knew / are definitely no longer as it seems at times "we" find it hard to release the words held within / for if i do, i lose them forever / unless i know what i say, exactly / to forever catch them more than a tangible dream / to have the words bleed through my pen / perfectly, the way it's supposed to be / has become so much more harder / with the decisions i've made / the chain reaction that has infected me i've become somewhat a wanderer / in this 'realtime' dream / forever able to look upon myself, to see myself / to better understand me / i'm trying to help me, help ME / but i can't even do that properly / now i find myself just ranting / trying to release all these stresses within all of me(s) / just trying, we are just trying...to be *10/15/08 [a.i.d]Birth sign: Capricorn
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