reflection

by Johnny - Capricorn

i have to shut you out.
i need to, even though truthfully-
i don't want to.
but i must.

it's soo hard to, it is.
to deny how one feels-
to change how one thinks.
forcefully, instead of willingly.
i am truly unprepared,
unready, unprotected for this-
all this.
coming at me like an enraged monsoon,
so many worries, all consuming me-
from all angles, draining me.

but still i manage, we manage.
divided amongst myself within.
to deal with each woe individually,
i have to be different, must be different-
for each called for position.

no longer one and the same,
drifted away he went, here i still remain.
me...what is still left of me.

11/4/08 [a.i.d]
Birth sign: Capricorn
Date created: 2008-11-08 00:35:05
Last updated: 2021-03-03 14:47:11
Poem ID: 71903

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