Another Lesson Learnt

by Aquarius84 - Aquarius

Am I the problem or are you?
I have no answers just endless questions. 
You have changed, 
You are no longer notable amongst the rest, 
You are one of them now,
I have lost you into the crowds; the hoards that enter my life and leave without a trace,
Never to return,
Never to be heard from… 
You are not one but many,
Another disappointment, 
Another lesson learnt,
I thought I had learnt not to care, 
Learnt not to hurt,
I thought I had grown, matured…
Yet the cynicism of age is beyond my reach, 
Youthful idealism still resides; refusing to depart,
Drum, drum it,
Beat it mercilessly,
Yet it still remains,
A glimmer,
A small fire burning, 
Hope. 
Maybe one day I shall not be disappointed,
Maybe one day I will be wrong about you,
I start again.
Pack my battered suitcase, 
My ragged cloths,
My tear stained garments,
I will learn. 
New ways to ease the pain,
To soothe the hurt,
To pretend that it doesn’t matter,
I never cared.
Yet it doesn’t get easier, 
The years roll on,
And the bitterness remains as biting.

Reason for writing:

    Self-explanatory.    

Birth sign: Aquarius
Date created: 2008-12-21 06:35:21
Last updated: 2021-03-03 14:47:11
Poem ID: 71920

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