i laugh inside my head
as i often do
when the admissions
reach my acceptance
there is who I am
and what i believe
to be desirable
the first rarely
falls into the second
which inspires a
rigid comfort
and the obscure
fantasies of
a semi-stranger's
bare words opening possibilities
soft lips finding my
perfumed skin
delicate persuasions
parting reservations
and
mindful hands
exploring opportunities
fluctuate inside my curiousity
and that internal laugh
resonates once again
i'm deja vu to you
a trite admirer
idle voyeur
and vain daydreamer
it was absurd
to contemplate
similar faint daydreams
would exist elsewhere
and there
again
echos that laughter of
epiphany
with sensible embarrassment
i'm
contrived
a partial mute
attempting to conceal
my inability to
lure and fascinate
satisfied with ambivalence
of being able to
fade
Birth sign: Gemini
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