Letting The Night Decide.

by Twan - Aries

Drink after Drink after Drink after Drink
I'm too sloshed to figure it out and really too smashed to think
A young pixie makes eye contact but I turn away
Why me, I think, why today?

I try to find someone who'd like me for me
but I only seem to get size queens who want a circumference of three
stay off the computer, it's bad for ya
Only the amoral get lucky, is that sad for ya?

We're the boys in the chorus, we hope you like our show
I'd like more than dick questions and a quick blow
Off the record, I want more, then I deserve to get
My life begins before sunrise and after sunset
and while I'm at it I want a million dollars and a successful business career
one where I shrug off the shackles and life without fear

I've let the night decide how it'll work
and I'm sure it'll choose right
for it's always led wrong
this should be the night
and I sit at the bar with a light beer
gazing around
it's the gathering of the same people, all feeling down
I take a swallow of the beer, and feel it not burn
weigh my chances of physical allure
since I won't find my soul mate in this non-smoky bar
I shouldn't be so demure
even worse it seems that people are looking away from me
Maybe I'm being paranoid with delusions
wait, that guy's not looking
Drew my own conclusion

And suddenly I'm sucked through a time warp
landing hard on Halsted Street
I dust myself off and look around
to see what I meet

And I see the first person I know
walking, looking around to see
Gee, this guy looks familiar
Wait. That's me. 

Interestedly I watch myself at 20
how he seems to know his way
but why's he look so scared?
Come whatever may

Then I notice something going on
he seems to be getting the eye
and unlike the current me
he doesn't seem so shy

Euphemisms abound, and finally:
Wanna go for a ride?
Before I get back in the time warp
he lets the night decide.

Back from my reverie
I'm suddenly sober and deep
Or maybe I just went
into an alcoholic sleep

Well, enough of the hard stuff
I get the bartender in my sight
Hey, barkeep, I want no bull
I'll have another Miller Light

I kind of gaze inwardly
vow to make this my last beer
it seems a little dead
and outside seems a little clear

And I head to another club
where I run into another old chum
who seems to want to drown his sorrows
in a glass of Bacardi Rum

Then as we drink he suggests a night
at his place to celebrate Pride
What do I do?

I let the night decide.

Reason for writing:

    Not my best, but for a long time, I've been looking at the difference between my Minnesota life and my Chicago life, and every once in awhile I think back about the difference between the people in these two places.    

Birth sign: Aries
Date created: 2009-05-04 06:05:25
Last updated: 2021-04-14 17:18:17
Poem ID: 71982

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