GTG

by Twan - Aries

This is how the story ends
How did it begin?

For some reason I botched the plan
lying at home in front of the fan
"It's a beatiful night, or at least fair
Why not see what's out there?"

So I put on my shoes and unrelaxed my feet
and strode out to run down random streets
Fulfill your destiny? You don't have a phone!
How, Twan, will <i> you </i> become Anthony Malone?

What's gay? I asked. I lived a sheltered life
So sheltered I thought one of the Fab Five was Dugan Fife
I believe there were slang terms to invent what it was
Please, whatever, don't tell me because.

Good Time Guy? I'm still a virgin!
Or with guys anyway, I don't need a surgeon
What am I attracted to? How should I know?
I'd say I'm this, but don't you pay a 'ho?

The dawn of a new era: Am I really cute?
Or will you kick me from the arena after I shoot?
Whatever. I'll put on a protective veneer
to protect a self-confidence that's remarkably sheer.

A Good Time Guy seems to understand
That you'd rather be with him than at home using your hand
but then it occured: I was elected?
Then why the hell am I always getting rejected?

It makes sense: Look back at my first Pride, it raises bile
Oh, that picture of me! Don't I look in denial?
A smirk covers you all, it'll pass muster
but damn, that afro makes you look like a buster.

In life you need friends, in time you need love
and sometimes you make both with a gentle shove
but a GTG walks his own way, makes his own rules
and is a jackass who doesn't laugh at himself when he looks a fool.

I didn't want much, I said, just a little love
as my one-nighters climbed to 100, then above
And if I told you the actual number? A veritable wealth
And I say that because really, I don't know myself.

It's no coincidence I've come, and I can die when I'm done
but why be done so quickly when I've had so much fun?
And it's been fun, but I'm catching flack
this former GTG gotta get down to brass tacks.

Happy Pride 2009. My ninth, not my best
doesn't mean a whole lot, though, for the rest
is yet to come. 
We've all come a long way from how it all was once.
Birth sign: Aries
Date created: 2009-06-30 04:19:31
Last updated: 2021-04-14 17:18:17
Poem ID: 72012

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