On a Lonely Night

by Twan - Aries

You don't owe me any apologies
You don't owe me a thing
You could say that I'm not your type
before you admit that they'll make me king
I stare at the screen but nothing's playing
You're not paying attention to anything I'm saying
I check the clock: Should I log on?
Knowing what'll happen I'll just slog on
On a lonely night I question myself again
Question my commitment to whatever's within
Shouldn't I be like everyone else, hooking up on online sites? Behind a computer screen? Observing the rites?

I have nothing that I want to share
You're not skinny but you're not a bear
I want to be fun, hell, I want to care
But I'm damaged beyond comprehensive repair
Hand me a drink and listen to me talk
I'm just a bald dude with a distinctive stalk
On a lonely night, all you have to do is ask
But. 

Knowing this about myself doesn't make me smile
I type messages empty of content, about as solid as bile
weak-kneed I project an image of great power
that comes from my eyes and my vicious glower
I hold all the cards, and you hold all the cash
however you win because you have the ass
I'd like to grab your hips and smash into you
but dignified I just lean down and tie my shoe
I don't lose control, I'm conservative at worst
Words spring from me like a microburst
It's not raining, it's pouring, where's it raining from, the moon?
And what goes down in the park at high noon?
Then I rationalize that talking to people is like drinking sand
So on a lonely night I boot up a site and spend the evening with my dick in my hand.

Reason for writing:

    I felt much like writing this, as I don't go out much during the weekdays despite being out of school until late August.    

Birth sign: Aries
Date created: 2009-07-31 06:24:06
Last updated: 2021-03-03 14:47:13
Poem ID: 72027

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