There's no words. There's no sound. There's nothing coming from me There's a silence that I can't recover my balance from. Dead? You? Really? Gone? Breaking the magic circle? Trying to drown my sorrows but I don't even taste the rum I can drink all I want. The sorrow remains Knowing you went away while I never had a clue What happened? Who? Why won't anyone tell me? Why does it seem I'm the only one who hurts? Gone a whole fucking year. No one thought to let me know What good are you when you take beauty from the world? How can I look at the world as I did before? Where was I? Why was I the last to find out? I loved you, intensely, though I hid it well and it turns out that now I'm in my own hell The world seems blacker without you here crying my eyes out with the saltiest tears I sit on the curb and stare at the spot where almost ten years ago we met Only this time I'm staring with a dark, brooding regret I fight the urge to cry again and very nearly fail. All I ever wanted was for all of us to return to each other once. I can't understand it...why now? Why so young? Why take beauty away while ugliness flourishes? And I start to cry again. It's not fair! Why Jimmy? Why? It hurts so bad I can't even pretend to be tough and stoic. My heart breaks, My past dies a little more, and you're gone behind that curtain I can't ever get behind. I'll love you forever. Wherever you are.
Reason for writing:
I lost one of my best friends, someone I loved, last year, and just got that message Saturday night. I don't know what I'm writing, because my mind is screwed up right now, and despite laughing with other friends, when left alone, I think about Jimmy and how lovely he was and why on earth he had to die. I'm angry and sad and heartbroken, all at the same time, and right now I'm not sure what's being expected of me.
Birth sign: Aries
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