Years have gone by and the stains of you have never left me... just like you said!! All those years you kept reminding me that "no woman" so far, had ever been able to forget you. I, mesmorised, by your grit, your seeming self-confidense-- what I deemed as "masculinity" fell into your trap. And your constant "grabbing" at me...even all those times I tried to leave! and was doing well in most respects... You waited "just long enough" while you consistantly did what even your SISTER tried to tell me you were doing all along! Back then, I was precious! One of the most desireable in town and you KNEW it! Your SELFISHNESS, to this day, has surpassed anyone, any man, I have ever known. To say you used and abused me doesn't even come close. You "took" my heart and CRUSHED it ever so slowly and manipulatingly Year after year, promising... Year after year, saying "things" that would make a woman like me want to "believe"... And you KNEW it! Always under the guise was your forever disguise. The death of your father! The need of your mother! Your need to attain all you wished to obtain! It was ALWAYS about YOU! And like a moron I relented. Ten plus years giving creed to YOU and your needs! And almost with my last breath, Amazingly yet, I managed a degree even after you IMPREGNATED me and insisted it be aborted!... with your demons, I consorted while my heart and soul were crumbling... Constitution fumbling but I made it through somehow and degree in hand no reprimand from you, you left me there... as you found a "girl" more fair and apologized that day you raped me sometime in May when I said NO! You ripped my blouse But as that goes It doesn't count I let you in my house! My point to this is overdue-- My point is that 'tween me and you I'll fight at least to see it down that you will NOT become Sheriff of our town!!!
Reason for writing:
I LEFT our town...moved 300 miles away...so I'm not some weirdo "clinger"....but tonight, my brother who still lives there in our home town, said he is now running for county sheriff...I...just am livid right now with emotion!
Birth sign: Pisces
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