spiritual suicide, the 13 year plan

by tattooedbeatmessiah - Libra

i believe that happiness cures 
nothing and
loneliness is 
worse when you are
with someone..
through the times of good cheer
the maudlin bastard inside me
refuses my right to let go...
...she says i smile at the wrong times and
i remember the time 
years ago 
at the funeral home
palms sweaty and hands shaking
while i read from the bible
i smiled while others were weeping..
..yes,i believe she was right...
but
how can i maintain my facade
of happy husband 
when my souls 
hanging from a noose?

Reason for writing:

    again..i am working some stuff out don't know if it makes a whole lot of sense but i feel a need to vomit this stuff here...    

Birth sign: Libra
Date created: 2009-09-09 16:56:17
Last updated: 2021-03-03 14:47:14
Poem ID: 72063

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