one craving too many

by clay - Aries

caffeine & nicotine
and a 3am cough
that won't quit
even though i've been meaning to...

i use these things as comfort,
thinking Kona and smoke rings
will ease the pain of missing you
a past full of beginnings 
with no end

so i go clean
stand clear
free falling the addiction
of those dear bad habits,
that have held my attention 
for so long

then out of nowhere,
or that corner of my mind
the one that holds you whispers
of a different time and you were mine

where'd you go?
my crutch, my friend
long time foe
that i can't seem to let go of

God, i miss You

and i break,
back to the caffeine & nicotine
till 3am, while the lights dim
i'm abreast, beautiful breath
while the hot liquid slides
compulsive compassion cries,
(and my sin SCREAMS)
just try and let me go!!!

because i still miss you so

Reason for writing:

    missing someone something awful some-days :(    

Birth sign: Aries
Date created: 2009-10-13 18:00:57
Last updated: 2021-03-03 14:47:14
Poem ID: 72075

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