Self Eulogy for the Non-Existent

by Phantom - Scorpio

If I died,
Who would be at my funeral?
Who would mourn me?
Who would remember me?
My contributions, the laughs, the good times,
My trials, my tribulations
My journey of ascension 
My blood, my sweat, my tears, my pain
The moments of victory, the comebacks from defeat?

I’m barely remembered when I’m alive.
Never acknowledged, never recognized.
Never thought of
I’m invisible to everyone I know.
Ignored when I shout out loud to the world.
Lost in crowds, lowered in volume
Pushed to the side like a mixed breed puppy

It’s safe to say that I’ve been reduced to a microscopic spec 
A forgettable amoeba
Devoid of life & rhythm
Just disrespected with contempt
Stabbed in the back, 
Scrutinized
Devalued
Dimished
Despised & Denounced
Even my so-called legacy, spit on and all.

How many times did I win
Only to have no one notice what I did?
After all I tried to accomplish,
My life would mean nothing if I perished tomorrow
I loved
I gave
I sacrificed
And this is the thanks I get?

How many parties were celebrated?
How many milestones were praised?
How many babies were made?
How many windows did I end up looking into? 
Only to see others experience what life is all about
While I was left in the cold to freeze 

While the world spins on its axis
The party gets louder and wilder
the DJ will tear up the club
the beautiful women will dance
Friends & family toast to their futures

As for me -
No life, no death
No birth, no suicides, 
no ghosts, no memories
Not even a zombie
At the end of it all,
I never existed. 

Reason for writing:

    Story of my life    

Birth sign: Scorpio
Date created: 2010-04-16 17:02:57
Last updated: 2021-03-03 14:47:15
Poem ID: 72156

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