My auntie passed away a year ago. Now I don't sleep no more. Her death makes me feel so guilty because I never got to say goodbye the last time I was home. I didn't even make it to her house to hug and kiss her on her cheaks. Seeing her in the casket a month later just made me lose control. I just couldn't believe she was gone. I wanted to shake her to wake her up, but I knew it wouldn't do no good. Just some wishful thinking we all do while trying to cope with the true pain of reality. All I could do is cry and cry while hearing her children scream with pain. My mom could hardly move. She was over come by grief. Her silence was like a cold wind trying to blow a hard stone statue. I could not bring myself to throw dirt on the casket as they laid her down that dark hole. Knowing it would be my last time I see her had my heart all twisted up in a tight knot. The pain of losing someone you love is never easy. They say time makes it better, but that is a myth. While the memories live on and forever in your heart, the thought of never seeing her just rips me a part. I miss her more than anything in this world. Her hugs, her smile and her kindness was just so beautiful. Always giving more than she could while never expecting from others. To be the woman she was I can never be. I loved her so much. I just wish I had said it more. This is my pain.. knowing I will have to live with this regret.
Reason for writing:
For my beautiful Auntie who left this world a year ago. There's not a day that goes by that I do not think of her. She was a strong loving kind and beautiful soul. She made you love life for all that is. The good always dies young..so not fair.
Birth sign: Cancer
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