Let go of me 2nd version

by Mike Malone - Gemini

Let go of me

Every corner I seem to turn you are there,
Calling my name when I try and blot you out,
Tugging on my shirt sleeves shouting my name,
Every friend I seem to have is also yours
This makes them less than friends of mine
But still we gather in your name alone,

I try to walk away from you but all to no avail,
You never seem to let me go; you've become my instinct,
In my thoughts I seem to see so little else but you,
My life a little tedious I went and let you in,
Now you've come to stay with me, a shadow is all I am,

Day by day I curse your name but it’s all in vain
A wretched creature is what I've become a sub human thing,
But yet each day I do the dreaded rounds, street to street 
Start the desperate search, not ceasing till I have you
Then I join the others you've enslaved, and own.
I breathe for you, I live for you, what do you give in return?
Degradation and deprivation is all that you provide

Where do I finish, where does the road you opened lead
Here is where it end’s, here is where you’ve left me
Sleeping in a filthy bag, scratching at the lice
No one looks in my direction; your grip is duly noted.
They know from one smug look, I’ve been and let you in
Cold and steely glance’s, walk past and take their chances

I remember the feeling when I first knew you
Many times I have seen you since, not one can compare
Taking control of me body mind and soul
You have no conscience... I realise now
Never once did you think of me just did what suited you

Now I am here, wishing I wasn’t, but still rooted,
Until the day you decide, that you’ll let go of me
They say it’s me that should let go, move on, 
But I have no power over anything now,
You’re the one with the cast iron grip on me
In the midst of you, not one thing matters more.
And in this way I will remain until you let me go.

Reason for writing:

    Edited longer version of a poem about drug addiction.    

Birth sign: Gemini
Date created: 2010-08-03 06:32:04
Last updated: 2021-03-03 14:47:16
Poem ID: 72189

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