I pretend I know it all, I pretend it all makes sense Without you there to lead me my body grows tense with fear, it's been months without you but still it hurts every single day but I fill my days with stuff that means nothing at all I dream about you but outside my skull there's a pall. Can't seem to understand how this could come to be For nobody understands how I feel, only me We were supposed to have years together but there's none Many nights should have been, many days in the sun I can't understand it at all, you should be here You can't leave me, I demand, with a little boy's fear The monsters have come and taken you away I understand less now then I did that horrid day How could it be, I ask, that medicine couldn't save you? I hope heaven has a place, I pray, for two They say a child only becomes an adult, when life unspools but how's that possible? How could a sentiment so cruel Be accepted by people who are otherwise smart How do you try to ignore a broken heart? I only allowed myself to cry once, cause a man doesn't cry when faced with pain, he throws hands he wants life back how it was before but there's no rewind button, no more I find my resolve slipping slowly, softly away For that pain destroyed my ability that day All the brains on the planet couldn't do much when faced with mortality that left my mind spaced All letter grades dropped, I considered walking away No one could blame me after such a destructive play But that's not what you wanted, not what you wanted from I I had business to handle, and you wanted me to fly. It's been five months without you. Nobody knows what I go through Faced with life without you...I don't know what to do.Birth sign: Aries
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